Frustration. Do you ever feel that way? What do you do with it?
Usually I blog/write in a journal only when I have good things to say. I know that’s opposite of most people but that’s how I roll.
It’s hard for me to trust and believe the best about people sometime. Do you know what I mean? To believe that what has happened is not someone intentionally out to get me, harm me, oppose me, or whatever. I feel this way toward God sometimes too.
Honestly, I’m a bit of a control freak at heart. Coupled with my intense desire to pack in as much living as I can into each day and I end up with a pretty hectic schedule. The thing is that I love all the things I get to do. I love the people I meet with, the relationships that grow,the ministry I am blessed to be in, the work I do, and so on. I just want more of it.
So today when my scheduled plans got thwarted (good word – overly emotional for the situation) it was my first reaction to blow things out of proportion and then immediately wonder why I was feeling such extreme things. My next thought jumped to “God is trying to humble me.” Usually though, this chain of thinking is followed by “God wants to bring me down a notch.” Thankfully (and this is why I am writing) today my thought immediately following “God is trying to humble me” was “In love.”
“In love.” God loves me. The gym where my running shoes are kept was closed today. I can’t go run. Maybe He wants me to do something different than I planned. He has my best interest at heart. He is still loving me, in spite of my frustration and my desire to control my own life. He knows what is profitable for me.
So this afternoon I am not going to do what I planned…may I have the time of my life doing what God would have for me instead. I hope you can do that too.
Happy Sunday,
James